The grief has been a bit harder this month. Not only is it Christmas but my birthday and my Grandma's birthday both fall in December.
I have found the little things are the hardest, like not getting that birthday phone call, not addressing a Christmas card to her, not buying her a gift. Each time these little things have happened, my heart just felt pained. I miss her so badly.
Her birthday is December 23rd, all week long I have been thinking about my Grandma. I so wish I could just pick up the phone tomorrow and wish her a happy birthday, I wish I could be sending her some flowers or a new book to read. Instead I only have my memories, pictures and things that were hers to comfort me now.
So Happy Birthday in heaven Grandma, even though I always miss you, I miss you just a little more this day.